Stigma is hard to deal with, for anyone. You see the movies, the tv shows and read the books. How much of that do you think is accurate? I believe they’ve taken the word mental illness and generalized it way to much. Obviously anyone who goes and shoots up a school or becomes a serial killer has something wrong with them mentally. When you think of schizophrenia though, what’s the first thing that comes to your mind? A lot would think that it is a mental illness, right? They put us in the category with killers and sociopaths when that isn’t accurate at all. Studies show schizophrenics are a lot more likely to hurt themselves versus hurting other people. Yes there is always a chance that our delusions cause us to lash out but do we plan and execute killing people? Do we make a hit list of people around us? Or have a preference of a person that we want to kill? The answer is no. We’re no more dangerous than a animal who feels cornered. A cat that feels cornered will scratch you. Does that mean the cat is mentally ill? No.
Understandably a cat is different than a human. Where my comparison is going is that people with schizophrenia can be paranoid. We can also be delusional in which we think a person or a group of people or things are out to get us if you will. My argument is that we’re not going to plan out a kill even if we could. Do you think that someone who is suffering from schizophrenia could plan this out. While dealing with delusions and hallucinations and voices. I know from experience that when I’m dealing with those symptoms, I can hardly plan out going to take a shower. I get distracted from the things that are going on inside my head. You would say I can be incapable of daily activities. Does that sound like someone who could plan out a killing?
Hitler, we all know him. We know what he has done. This man clearly had something wrong with him mentally but it clearly wasn’t as debilitating as schizophrenia. He had the mental clarity to carry out his genocide. Does someone who can barely plan out his shower while ill sound like a person who could plan what hitler has done?
My reason for this post is I’ve experienced people acting like I was going to snap and kill just because I have schizophrenia. My father and his family wouldn’t let me move in with them to recover because they were worried about their safety. If anything, the most hurtful thing I would have done to them, is avoid then. Socially isolate myself from them in my room.
Honestly I’ve had paranoid delusions that my family or complete strangers were out to get me. Like I said a while ago, my first delusion was that my mother was eating my brain from the other room. I did not act on this and she didn’t even know about until I told her years later. Unlike some forms of illness or brain damage, our impulse control still works. The proof is in the fact that I’ve never hurt anybody. I’ve been diagnosed with this illness over a decade and I’ve never hurt anyone or anything.
I believe that the want to kill someone is an illness of its own and should be looked into as such. It should have its own category and should not be generalized with people like me.
Whether you agree with me or not is entirely up to you. I’m just trying to explain it from my point of view. The point of view that the stigma is up against.