I used to get lost in video games. As a kid and teenager I would play everyday. Games like Halo, Modern Warfare, racing games, RPGs, and almost every other game.
After being diagnosed with schizophrenia that didn’t really stop. Now that I think about it, that’s one thing my illness never really interfered with. Come to think of it, I don’t think I’ve ever had a delusion about any of the games I’ve played.
Playing while sick was a whole other story though, I suck while sick. Delusions would distract me from the game and I would become disconnected from it. Not one delusion or hallucination about it though, which is surprising.
Movies, books, music, even people having conversations around will all influence my illness in some form or another. I’d say fortunately for me, they never seem to take seed in my crazy head. It’s unreal to think about how even just having a tree outside my window could cause me to go into a elaborate delusion about it but not video games.
Writing about all of the things I’ve gone through has truly put my illness into perspective. Though I don’t mind it, it’s nice to get out of my head and focus on a reality other than my own. Not to say I would chose a life of video games over what I have now. I don’t drink or do drugs, I smoke cigarettes but that’s not a actual escape for me.
I don’t play as much as I used to when I was younger. That’s not really saying much considering how much I played before. Between balancing work and family, there’s not always time to sit there for hours and play. I know my wife probably doesn’t care for me not coming to bed with her.
Honesty though, life would be a little more bleak without a distraction.