Hello, things have certainly taking a turn since I last posted. My whole world has been flipped upside down but as usually I’m trekking through, one foot in front of the other. Surprisingly my Schizophrenia has stayed in check regardless of what I’ve been through. I will say however that I’ve gone on a antidepressant, Zoloft.
I’m about two months in on Zoloft and I’ve been thinking about upping the dose a bit. I’m doing a lot better, that is for sure but a lot better from where I was isn’t quite saying much. Not to knock my life but I should have been on antidepressants ten years ago. I would have saved myself a lot of suffering.
I recently switched jobs. After being a store manager for seven months I realized that at that particular company and time that it just wasn’t for me. It also didn’t help that the pandemic struck a week after I was promoted. I did my best as I always strive to do. I was even doing a good job, my comps stayed positive even through the worst of it but it seriously took a toll on me. I was working long hours and had a very new staff. I took over a failing store that hadn’t reached positive comps in some time. The staff that was left over from the previous store manager had some pretty bad habits but instead of cleaning house I did my best to turn things around for them. In vein I poured all I had but in the end I decided it was best for me to move on.
I started a new job five weeks ago and things couldn’t be better. I took a pay cut, that’s for sure but I’ve found ways to earn extra cash. I started door dashing on the side of my full time job. I have to say that even though some weeks I work more than 50-60 hours between the two jobs, my quality of life has improved tremendously. I especially enjoy the fact that when I’m delivering for door dash, my wife comes along and navigates for me. She filters through the bad orders and certainly makes it a good time!
I can honestly say that the pandemic has certainly changed things a lot. I’ll be honest when I say the mask helps my customer service, seeing how I always look grumpy it hides my scowling face 😆. Things may have worsened in the world but I do my best to stay positive even though it may be difficult sometimes. I’ve lessened my exposure to the news since more so than ever it has been nothing but bad news.
It’s a crazy world we live in but do your best to stay positive. Your perspective of things makes all the difference in the world. Stay strong, stay mentally healthy and most of all stay safe! During these trying times we need to check on each other.